01/10/2013

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It happened again yesterday. I heard the question. I knew the truth. And as much as I felt bad for doing it, I said something completely different. ‘Yes I have’ (I haven’t), ‘I meant to call you’ (I totally didn’t), ‘I’m fine’ (I’m really broken).

Why am I so afraid to speak the truth? My body isn’t fooled – my itchy nose and blushing cheeks feel awkward. I suspect my friends aren’t fooled much either…

Jesus, speak gently to my heart. It’s the source of everything I say. Help it to trust you more. Heal what’s broken inside. I want to find freedom in the truth of my words.

Luke 6:45 here: http://bit.ly/14XW9XL
Proverbs 4:23 here: http://bit.ly/18kuXTh

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30/09/2013

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Jesus, those bodies on the screen are so beautiful – so much more lovely than mine. And the sex I’m watching calls so deeply to the desires I have inside. Surely these feelings can’t be that bad? Didn’t you create this body to want intimacy?

You did. And I think I know that you want me to enjoy deep intimacy born of a real relationship, not the love-faking I’m so tempted to watch on my phone.

Help me see this temptation for what it is: a cheap substitute for the sacrifice and deep joy of true, committed, selfless love. Fill me with your mercy and grace. Help me leave this broken shortcut to real intimacy behind.

Read 1 Corinthians 13v4-13 here: http://bit.ly/11CMRKo

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